The year began with a break up, I decided to call things off with my long time partner of 4 years, as things weren't moving forward and in my 21st year of life, I wanted to experience new things. This didn't exactly work out as you'll find out later but I began drawing up a plan in my (can't function without) Moleskine notebook of what I wanted to do and achieve in 2011. Which started off well when I was offered the opportunity to attend and cover London Fashion Week for M.A.C Cosmetics. I was all on my own this time as usually my boyfriend would help me out with filming and things but I managed well and had an amazing experience along the way. The technical difficulties occurred later however, I really took on too much as I was filming for M.A.C and my own youtube channel as well as taking photos for the blog. During the editing process my 3 year old MacBook conked out on me and had to go in for repair, when I got it back all the video footage from day one of filming and some of the photos from day two and three were corrupt and unusable.
(these are some of the corrupt photos I managed to retrieve from my old hard drive, which are obviously unusable for a regular post.)
Once I managed to retrieve most of the footage and photos off my old MacBook hard drive, I ran in to further issues with the last few blog posts from Fashion Week. Blogger the site that hosts my blog was down in around May and alot of people were losing posts that were posted on a certain date. I was one of them and this post [backstage-paul-smith] was entirely lost and never recovered by Blogger in the outage. I had to recreate the post but couldn't remember a single word I had originally written, which is why there is hardly any text involved.
Next up I lost my trusty Moleskine notebook whilst on a trip to IKEA and couldn't remember anything I had set out to achieve. My life spiraled into the abyss as I struggled to find a grip of who I was and what I was doing, I went through an early midlife crises and the impending doom of turning 21 (which terrified me because I was officially an adult) sent me searching through my past for everything I had ever wanted to achieve. I ended up buying a 2006 'IT' bag, searching for a new boyfriend, planning a trip to Las Vegas, auditioning for Big Brother and dyeing my hair. But one experience changed my path (which I won't go into) and I ended up speaking to my partner again, we patched things up and I realized how important he is to me.
I'm now searching for new inspirations in life and I hope this blog doesn't come across as miserable, but I don't usually share my personal life online. I think sometimes people forget that I'm not a corporation and that I'm a real person with ups and downs just like everyone else. These are my life experiences and life isn't always plain sailing, but you live and you learn and I hope that 2012 will be a much more positive year for me.
Happy New Year Everyone.
(Images copyright of Richie Nickel, corrupted by Apple MacBook)