31 December, 2011

Line, Dot, Electric Shock!

Well 2011 hasn't exactly been the best year for me, I've had numerous technical errors, computer collapses, file corruptions, website outages, midlife crises, break ups, set backs and general unluckiness. Which hasn't exactly made for the most productive year, but here is a look back at what made 2011 what it was for me.

The year began with a break up, I decided to call things off with my long time partner of 4 years, as things weren't moving forward and in my 21st year of life, I wanted to experience new things. This didn't exactly work out as you'll find out later but I began drawing up a plan in my (can't function without) Moleskine notebook of what I wanted to do and achieve in 2011. Which started off well when I was offered the opportunity to attend and cover London Fashion Week for M.A.C Cosmetics. I was all on my own this time as usually my boyfriend would help me out with filming and things but I managed well and had an amazing experience along the way. The technical difficulties occurred later however, I really took on too much as I was filming for M.A.C and my own youtube channel as well as taking photos for the blog. During the editing process my 3 year old MacBook conked out on me and had to go in for repair, when I got it back all the video footage from day one of filming and some of the photos from day two and three were corrupt and unusable.
(these are some of the corrupt photos I managed to retrieve from my old hard drive, which are obviously unusable for a regular post.)
Once I managed to retrieve most of the footage and photos off my old MacBook hard drive, I ran in to further issues with the last few blog posts from Fashion Week. Blogger the site that hosts my blog was down in around May and alot of people were losing posts that were posted on a certain date. I was one of them and this post [backstage-paul-smith] was entirely lost and never recovered by Blogger in the outage. I had to recreate the post but couldn't remember a single word I had originally written, which is why there is hardly any text involved.
Next up I lost my trusty Moleskine notebook whilst on a trip to IKEA and couldn't remember anything I had set out to achieve. My life spiraled into the abyss as I struggled to find a grip of who I was and what I was doing, I went through an early midlife crises and the impending doom of turning 21 (which terrified me because I was officially an adult) sent me searching through my past for everything I had ever wanted to achieve. I ended up buying a 2006 'IT' bag, searching for a new boyfriend, planning a trip to Las Vegas, auditioning for Big Brother and dyeing my hair. But one experience changed my path (which I won't go into) and I ended up speaking to my partner again, we patched things up and I realized how important he is to me.
I'm now searching for new inspirations in life and I hope this blog doesn't come across as miserable, but I don't usually share my personal life online. I think sometimes people forget that I'm not a corporation and that I'm a real person with ups and downs just like everyone else. These are my life experiences and life isn't always plain sailing, but you live and you learn and I hope that 2012 will be a much more positive year for me.

Happy New Year Everyone.


(Images copyright of Richie Nickel, corrupted by Apple MacBook)


  1. I'm so sorry your 2011 wasn't a happy one. I really hope that 2012 is better to you and you achieve the things you want to.

  2. It takes time to work out what you want from love/life/fashion! I hope that 2012 is a great year for you x

  3. The first two pictures actually look cool :)

    I know that "mid-life crisis" feeling, I had it too for a long time near the end of High School. It's just such a bad feeling, it's like you don't have a set plan while everyone seems like they do and you feel like you're nearing the end of your life even though you're young. But I don't think it's such a bad thing to go through that anxiety now though, it's better to plan your life as you go through it rather than years in advance--because you might not feel the same way about certain things at 22 than you did at 18. In short, it's better to be unhappy about your life when you're young rather than when you're old, because then it will be more difficult to start over. Just live your life and plan things as you go along. I truly hope that 2012 will be a good year for you (and hopefully for me too), things always get better, you just need to give it time. <3

    P.S. I'm glad that you're only a couple of years older than me, it's reassuring to see that other people like me go through similar things and probably understand where such anxiety comes from. :)

  4. Thanks for sharing Richie it just shows everyone never to give up, keep moving forward

  5. Wish you well.. So sorry about your life.. 2011 was not that good for me either..I always look forward to your tutorial, there so amazing, the one positive thing I would do is watch and learn from you. Thanks Richie, wishing you all the best..Glad you shared a part of your life, to all of us who love you. Never give up, and always know you have youtube fans that really do care.

  6. Glad to hear that you've drawn on new inspiration & hope to trek on! You have been greatly missed! Can't wait to see your lovely smile, and those gorgeous eyes of yours soon online! We need our Richie back! :)

  7. It must have been something about 2011, everyone I know including me had a really awful year. I'm sorry to hear yours was one of them. I wish you all the best for 2012 in your personal and professional life.